Since I left Manitoba in 2014, I have been struggling to pin down what home means to me.
Where I was born and raised?
Where I currently live?
Where I’ve spent most of my adult life?
Each of these questions has a different answer. A drastically different answer for that matter.
Because in some weird way…
Manitoba is home. That’s where I grew up, where my core values were shaped and instilled in me. Where my family is.
Ontario is home. That’s where I learned to stand on my own, created my own identity, obtained a university degree and made some incredible friends.
Nepal is home. A place where I have friends who welcome me into their homes like family, a place I’ve learned to navigate despite cultural and linguistic barriers. A place that I missed every day I was away.
And because I’ve moved 11 times in the last 5 years, because I’ve had so many different homes… Home is not one particular person or place on this planet. And in my eyes, that makes me incredibly lucky.
Home is the places where there are people I love. Where I have people who will look out for me. Where I might run into someone I know on the street. Home is anyplace where I know I will always have a bed to sleep in.
This quote, which I have borrowed from Passion Passport (One of my favorite Instagram accounts) sums up how I feel about my attempts, and failures to perfectly define what home means to me. And also, why I feel so blessed to have the homes that I do. Homes that I am lucky enough to be able to go back to, that are beautiful, safe, and that welcome me back with open arms, no matter how long I have been away.
“Home can be more than a place. It can be a person, a state of mind, or even a feeling. While we all enjoy traversing the globe, embarking on grand adventures and short getaways, the return journey is always a welcome part of the process. If we’re lucky, home is an accessible place and embraces us after such travels; if we’re not, it’s a longed-for destination that may never be found, or one that can seldom be reached. And if we build our lives across many different borders, it’s possible that all of the above ring true. When one is deeply rooted in various communities, it’s possible to have many different homes. “